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Monday, May 09, 2005
I just finished reading over some of my old entries in my old diaries and I realize that there are a lot of things I used to take for granted. It also seems that only after certain things happen and misunderstandings forged that we realize we din cherish or appreciate some things. A lot of things in life we take for granted, like simple moments when I am able to write this entry and eat my breakfast at this time of the dae now. Given one month later, I certainly wun have the luxury to wake up late, read the papers and diaries and have breakfast at this hour. Especially for couples in a relationship, we don’t see each other’s efforts till we lose it. We often forgot that it was the other party’s efforts and some magical stuff that got us together. Its almost human nature for people to continue to ask for more in life and we can never be satisfied. The end product may fall below expectation sometimes but do we often bother to ask the story behind them? A gift may be small or not comparable to others but do we ask the source of it, the heart of doing it, or even the mind that conjure the idea of getting you this gift in the first place. I myself have been guilty of such crimes.

If I have been unappreciative to you at any time, I am sorry, Xiao Hui.
If I am unappreciative to anyone of you, my friends, I am also sorry.

If we must learn to appreciate and cherish what we have, why do we continue to ask for more in life? Why do we ask for so much in a job we do? I remember 2 months ago my ideal salary was 2000. By now my expectation has rose to 2300. I think by the actual time I got my 2300 salary, I must be thinking to myself whether others would be getting 2500? If one can never be satisfied, one can never be happy. If one can never be happy, why even bother to find that perfect job you seek so hard for? When we have the money, we blame the job hours are too long for us to enjoy and spend the salary. When we get a job that pays well and yet squeeze everything from 9 to 5, we blame why the job is so tough and so stressful. It’s starting to be corny right? I am going to laugh at myself the next time I complain bout life and I come back to read this. We people never learn, that’s why people can never be happy. That’s why we have Big Macs now where one char siew bun used to make one ancestors happy. I know this is only one side of the story. There will be activist in the other camp which will cry out loud, “We need to continuously improve our lives, only then we can live happier and better.” I know your stand, I just dun wish to go into it, the endless cycle.

Life is only traveled once,
todae's moment becomes tomorrow's memory.
Enjoy every moment,
because the gift of life is life itself.
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