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Sunday, July 30, 2006
Its getting late at night, but I am still wide awake. Alot of things I do not understand and I cant just sort out my thoughts. What do I want? I dun know... Anytway I guess its best not to think and let things take its course for a while. I cant be happy being bothered by so much.

While every girl may look forward to wearing a glass shoe just like the fairy tale in the wedding, what can I look forward to? King Arthur's sword in the modern world cant do me any good. What can of fairy tale life can I lead? Life is never like a fairy tale, and it will never go according to what you plan. It seems I can never be satisfied with my life. Even when things may be going smooth. I alay tell others to be satisfied with what they have to appreciate what or who they have. Not that I don't, its just that even that I treasure with what I have, I cant be happy. It seems as though its not what I want.

But when I look at the other road, where it MAY bring me more happiness, I shrug with doubt. Can I lead that life? Do I really want it? I do not take a further step, so I turn back to my present life. A present life I dont dread, but nothing fanstatic to shout about. A life full of excitement will really tired me out I guess, but I guess a little won't hurt right? I don't take risk with what I consider precious. When the stakes are too high, I back out of the gamble. I consider my life now a bed of roses. I practically think I have everything that everyone ought to have. I try to convince others I am leading a ok life, but the fact is sometimes I cant even convince myself. Ironic, life that is.
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Saw this interesting link about past and present. Though I don't really believe it since all those born on my birthdate will have the same fate as mine, let me post it here for fun sake.

Please follow this link: http://www.thebigview.com/pastlife/

Your past life diagnosis: I don't know how you feel about it, but you were male in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern North China around the year 1700. Your profession was that of a trainer or holder of fine animals, such as birds..
Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
Revolutionary type. You inspired changes in any sphere - politics, business, religion, housekeeping. You could have been a leader.
The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
Your lesson is to learn humility and faith in spiritual principles. You should believe in higher reasons.
Do you remember now?
Saturday, July 22, 2006
Alot happened the past few days, well on second thoughts maybe not alot. Haha first of all, I went to watch a Pirates of Carribean with Xiao Hui. It was free tickets given by my company and though many of my colleagues gave bad review, I found it to be really nice. It was so funny. Dont' know why people said so. I just read Angeline's blog, she found it nice too. Hhaha you are not the only one easily amused the show, I was too.

Our mailstaff have been changing and on leave such that we have to keep filling up for her. I in turn have to stay back and do my work after office hours. Not that I mind, but is it so hard to find someone who stick to her job and like the job? I thoguht the saying goes, theres a job for everyone. And she replaced someone we used to like alot. After all we used to be all so happy. HAha things changed? Well I have became Adrian the mailman, enveloping 2000 plus letters everyday. Proud to say, I am a graduate from SMU now, Securities Mailng Unit. AHha.

Next, I board a train yesterday, only to be seriously disturbed by a super smelly man. I mean you could see the digust of the girl next to him once he walked in, and when the MRT shuts the door. Only come next stop when the door opened again did we have a chance of fresh air. God, please ban all smelly people into the train. Haha maybe thats too much, considering I may need to take a train next time I go for reservist or what. Come to think of it, no matter how many thousand times you wash the NS no. 4 uniform, the smell is still there. I guess theres no need to ban smelly people taking public transport afterall.

Heard a story about a tortise and a man. The man was showing off to his guest how great his tortise's endurance was and he place it under his table's legs to support the table. The guest was like "woahhh amazing!" The tortise didn't say anything but stayed there. Then the man said, that's nothing. He then took out a hammer and placed a cement brick on the tortise, wanting to smash on it. Unknowingly, the tortise suddenly ran super fast and bit the owner toes. This story tells us no matter how many times we bully someone or take someone for granted, when the other party doesnt make any noise means he or she is easy to bully. Never go overboard or that person might just fight back. Black or white, right or wrong, who is it to tell? If someone always bully me, and one day I couldnt take it and kill the person, am I the victim or murderer? Me typiong the word victim first shows I am more inclined to think I am the victim, and most of the time these inclination to protect oneself and pity oneself might push someone to do what one wouldnt even dare to dream of. On a lighter note, when your friend has always been nice to you, dont take it for granted. One day when he or she suddenly scream at you or don't talk to you, only you will feel the pain of losing someone.

Xiao Hui says people who reads self help books are alway lacking of that something. If you read bout happiness, you are lacing happiness. Same with those bout success. I guess she's right. I think the key to suceed for anyone is just one thing. That you want it. That you want something very much. The determination, passion and will to want something badly will make sure you are better than anyone in the world who are also fighting for it. I will make sure I remember this always. Always to know what I want and making sure I fight for it.
Saturday, July 08, 2006
A song I like really alot recently, catchy tune, meaningful lyrics bout frenship, wrote in a different manner.

第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天
你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的锻炼
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节
如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句
如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的胸怀志意我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你

你了解我所有得意的东西
拆穿我留些意怕我忘形
你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形像保密

Haha had a real talk with my boss yestersday, learned a couple of things in the hour plus talk, but I wonder... Does map out my career path better, but still... Anyway lets not talk about work.

Went to see my buddy's blog, realize he took so many photos of Hong Kong. Let me thanked him greatly now, for making Hong Kong such a wonderful place and with those photos, they represent Hong Kong so much! Think you are a great photographer! HAha. Thanks buddy.

Noticed something funny in workplace lift. Since our interior is full of mirror, I cant help but notice people looking at themselves, combing the hair, adjusting the dress while taking the lift. Its as if no one is there and they do it deliberately. I used to be too embarassed to do that, but somehow when I joined the bank, I also do that in front of strangers. Weird habit of the bank staff... Haha.

What defines a wonderful life? Getting what you want? Things going your way? If thats the case so far my life had been rather wonderful. Heard a saying on drama I watched just now. "A mistake, can help you grow better. A deadend, can help you jump to the next level" It all depends on how you look at it, and how you make you of what is suppose to bring you down, to bring you up to the next level. Every mistake, every fall, take the opportunity to pick yourself up and learn from it. Let me end with what my boss told me, "how many 10 years does a person have, lets live life to the best of what we can."
Sunday, July 02, 2006
The world cup is coming to an end, with only 4 teams left in the tournament. England and Brazil took their planes out of Gremany last night, breaking many people's hearts, I am sure. Argentina went home too, the best team in the tournament I feel. Ukraine put a brave fight, but Italy was too strong. From the way I see things going, Germany should take the cup, with its rather good players and superior home advantage. But every world cup has its twist, whats its going to be this time round.

Life has slowed down to the seconds. When I wake up this morning, I do not know what to do. Its 9am in the morning. Oh gosh. Well maybe I did not want Monday to come. Feeling the mondae blues on a sundae. Super PMS. My parents went on board this casino ship, free of charge. Meals included. Wonder if its that nice. Free things dun come nice, nice things dun come free. Theres no free lunch in this world, unless theres a catch. Skeptical? Pretty much.

With the Hong Kong trip behind me, I can only look forward towards August where I get to have my 2 weeks break. I havent thought of what I want to do or can do. Go on a short resort trip? Finish painting and fixing my car model which I have put on hold for so long? Hibernate? Buy a PS2 or Xbox and play my life away? I guess I have to stop dreaming. Afterall theres no leave for me in July. Its going to be a long long month. Better fix some dates and outing I can look forward to.

I just suddenly went to read my old diary. Was a really happy go lucky guy, many memories came back to me. Din wana lose anything I did not treasure. Wana be really happy. Wana be me.

You don't stop laughing just because you grow older. You grow older just because you stop laughing.

Something I used to say. Life's good.
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