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Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Its been for a few weeks, that every wednesday I wake up, I am so happy, telling myself to look forward as it will be Friday tomorrow. But after a while, reality sinks in and I am so demoralised for work as its only Wednesday. Must be so busy for the first 3 days of the week that my body clock is all screw up.
Sometimes people overwork, especially yound people, as they tell themselves they should work more while they still can. But hey, sometimes our body do not give out signals readily. All the side effects will only come at old age. Probably thats how people die in their sleep, especially the few young men who died in their sleep in the past 2 months. The reasons almost unknown, except perhaps being overworked I guess.
This seems to sink in theory of Death note out there. Haha with Death Note 2 coming, I kind of lkie the idea of the movie and cant help feel that someone is behind these death. Ok jokes aside, I wonder how many of us can resist the temptation to write a name in the notebook. There are times I guess deep inside, that if we can get rid of the thorn of our flesh, it will be great. So if you hold on to a book, would you not write a name on it? Once you wrote the first, the second will follow. Thats how it all happens. The beauty of the Death Notebook, the alluring Death Notebook.
I am not sure if I would write any name on the book. I would say no now. But who knows when you have absolute power in your hands?
Ok.. I wun write any... I promise... Now what did you say your name was again? Let me write it down just in case I forget...
Saturday, December 09, 2006
Last week has been quite a drag. It seem so long, with so much work that really bogged me down. I ran the 10KM StandChart run last week, it was really a test on my endurance. I din ran fast and only thanks to Ray and Mark that I did not walk throughout the race. Thankfully I finished it, and to a person that dun exercise, it was no easy feat and for me, it was a remarkable achievement. Nevermind the fact that my timing was only the 3rd quartile percental, I was just glad I completed the run. Well thanks to my slow running, photographers managed to take 7 pictures of me during the run compared to Ray who only got 2. Somehow throughout my life, during all these events, I always get the most shots. Be it when I was doing charity work or attending functions, my shots were always taken. Photography luck.

Well I realise a few things this week:
1.Well Life sucks. Ok life always sucks. Just Kidding.
2.Dun carry diapers in the office when you are 25 years old. Not only it breaks my gals heart, I guess it look kinda stupid on you. Why did I carry? Dun ask. HAha.
3.When you wana cut your hair, your hair will look damn great. So secret to good hair dae everydae, tell yourself you are going to cut your hair every morning.
4.Try to go to your office printer room more, it seems thats where all the action happens.

Thats all I guess...
Saturday, December 02, 2006
For the past few daes I had a very stiff neck. I can't tilt my head backwards or sideways. I was prone to backstabing and move like a robot. Life wasnt good, and I don't feel like dancing.
Well enough of complaining, lets look forward towards next year. We are now into the last month of 2006. 2006 has been quite an interesting year. Its the first full working year of my life. I finally tasted the life of an working adult, and as expected it turned out to be very tasteless. Well, on the other hand, it taught me to really cherish every holiday, leave or weekend that I have. To spend it fully with my friends, family and girlfriend of course. Life would never be the same going forward, so all we can do is to turn back once in a while and envy the times one had. As the Chinese saying goes, "Bu Yong Tian Chang Di Jiu, Zhi Zai Hu Chen Jin Yong You."
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
A few things brought me to remember about army. Yes, to many guys, thats quite a dreaded word. To many gals, they never will understand why its a dread to us. When we ask them to go try, they would say, you try giving birth to a baby. Well, what can we say? We can give birth, neither we can escape army unless there's something wrong with us. Bottom line: guys, we dun have a choice.

So lets get on with it, in fact I kinda appreciate army. Not that I love it and would volunteer for it, I kinda had a mentality of, since theres no choice, might as well live with it. And so thats the start of it, army start to change my life. I became more mature in some ways, and childish in some ways. In army I used to jump on the bed, a few daes back I jump on the chair while singing KTV.
I became to accept things for the way they are, even if something bad fall on me. I try to shake it off, if can't I just suck thumb and do it. Thats life in army, thats life in office. Both places, they call these things "sai kang" aka shitty jobs or arrows. Depends on how you end up with the job.
In army I learn to be smart and quick witted when asked questions and given short time to answer. This saved me more push ups. Now in office, I think quick on the feet, to save me troubles on my eyes and on my legs. Of course sometimes you have to act stupid or blur, that way you live better and safer. The wise saying goes" Act blur, take cover, nver be a voluteer!"
Oh and never assume, especially in office. Alway back yourself up with emails, documents and facts. In army, they say "assumption is the mother of all fuck-ups." Pardon my language. After all, if you think, then I thought, then who confirm?
Thats why I never delete any of my mails. Thus they call me a dustbin. Poor me. AHaha.

So army is full of shit, work is full of shit. Always look on the bright side of life. Always try to find light out of a pile of shit. Shi Xing, endure for 2 weeks? Your freedom will be back after that!
Sunday, November 19, 2006
It been a pretty busy and wonderful weekend. Since Friday night, I managed to meet up with Angie and ShiXing for dinner at Marina. It was quite a different experience at MOF(Ministry of Food), though the portion comes pretty small. Poor Angie, she seem so tired. Well since ShiXing was driving, we decide to head down to Holland V to have 2 hours of fun at settler's cafe. HAha on our way there, we decide to pick up Celine and it was pretty funny. The traffic was quite packed and we half know our way there. We had quite a funny trip on the way picking her up and we did contemplate for her to take a cab down there instead.
In the end all went well and Angie became alive playing the jungle sprirt I think. Thanks guys, for making me laugh so heartily again. It was a great night, though in the end I was too tired on the return trip back. But luckily ShiXing drove us home. He's the man!

Well came Saturday and it was supposely to be Citigroup family day. But it rained so heavily in the noon at my side that I waited till evening to go down Sentosa. By the time I reached, half the activities were gone. But I still manage to grab a few goodie bags, a few dinner sets and catch the small parade of fireworks. Later my family decide to catch the musical fountain performance. Its the same one I watched 3 times, but the first for my family. I must say despite watching 3 times, it kinda still have some entertainment value in it, not bad at all.

Today is Sunday, and my dear was so sweet to buy me a ORIGINAL Final Fantasy 12 game. Haha I had never bear to buy a oringal PS2 game, so it was really sweet for her to buy it for me. And for any FF game, its definately worth keeping one orignal game. Thanks dear, and happy 3rd year aniversary!

Well later in the evening I am meeting Sharrel and folks. Haha I dunoe who is going to be there, but I hope everyone will be there. Would be another nice gathering of old friends.

***edited on 20Nov***
Well it end up really well with 12 of us turning up. Its quite surprising to see so many of us again, and this weekend has really been meaningful. In the end we sang KTV till late at night and I reached home at 1 plus despite taking a cab. Arrgg stupid MRT lady who told me there's still a last train. Well, thats life.
Now very tired and sian to do work. Bleh. Shall take leave this thurs and Fridae.
***end***

Wow, time really flies, and having worked for one year, meeting old friends are really nice. Especially my NBS friends which I never seen for quite some time. All of us are kinda busy I guess. Haha found a photo of us when we were still 'young'. It was take about one year plus ago, but things changed so much. Things change, places change, people change, but I hope friendship never change. Take care guys!


Sunday, November 12, 2006
Wierd weekend. Friday I was going home on the train, tired, so I felt alseep ont he train. So shit, the lady beside me had to wake me up when the train reach City Hall and asked if I wana get down, then she herself went off. Who or when did I tell her I am dropping off at City Hall? Its not even Boon Lay or Pasir Ris. When I overslept once at Pasir Ris, noboay woke me up till the train driver came and woke me up and I was totally embarassed. So it seems, some Singaporeans are overly helpful, some simply are not.

Wanted to celebrate my mum's birthday yesterday. But alas, it was quite terrible. My mum wanted to do some shopping, so we decide going to Vivocity would be quite a good choice. On the way there, the traffic was jammed, the carpark was packed, the mall was crowded. We cant find a single place to eat, and after 2 and half hours, we were still hungry and no food in sight. We had to give up, so we went off to a nearby Chinese Restaurant to eat. The food was nice though, but way too steep. At that time, it seems we would almost use anything to buy food. But I guess mum was still happy, for father bought her flowers for the first time! For him to walk into the florist, it took a lot of courage, especially at his age I guess. Haha. For once, he did right.
Thursday, November 02, 2006
It seems there are a few conclusions I came about regarding the mental age test thing. That women seem to have a larger mental/actual age gap then men(putting my life at risk by making this statement) Not that I say they are older, I mean to say its quite true as there's a saying that women are more mature than men.It is to say, men never grows up. Also it seems that most, or rather all the people I know who tried the test, are older than their actual age. This means 2 things, work killed us, or the test is fake. Which is true? You decide.

Its the time of the year again, where Christmas is about 50 days away and we have to evaluate ourselves if we have been good all your round. I was told to rate myself from 1 to 5, 5 being the worst. I tried to gave myself a few 2s, but on the day of submission, I made it all 3s. One day later, I realize I might be even getting 4s afterall. Looks like I am not getting a big 'present' this year, for Santa aint happy with my performance. Being so naughty, I wonder if its all worth it in the first place. Though even when the real 'present' should come around, its way past christmas, maybe nearer to Chinese New Year.

Maybe I should start changing Santas. Ho ho ho.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Came across a website sent by my friend about your mental age, its nice to try. For me? Gosh, my mental age seems to be 30 years old, which is so not true! AHah I remembered when I tried a few years back, I was 2 years younger than my real age. To think my mental ager has increased by 7 years.... No wonder I am getting coments that I am older now, though I believe I am really still quite young at heart sometimes. AHha not for those who dun understand chinese coz its in chinese. Maybe thats why I get a wrong evaluation, I must have misread certain questions(still cannot admit old...)

HAhah heres the link:
http://www.xlzx.com/xlcs/zy32.htm

I think work has killed me...
Sunday, October 22, 2006
Hmm it seems a long time since I wrote an entry, figure that if I dun people might have thought I died from the haze. Haha.

Well reason being nothing much happened for the past 1 or 2 weeks. Been pretty happy and seen a lot more through life and work. Had a nice short break and had a nice lunch with my girlfriend up on the revolving restaurant at Top of the M. Quite a different experience, though french crusine might not be for me cause the main course portion is sooo small. But the service was good, the food was good, and best of all , the dessert was great. Ambience was good, kinda romantic, high up in hazy Singapore, like you are in the high mountains. AHah.
Ohh bought myself a Nikkon camera, haha not the best model out there, but whereas its still my first one after so long. Used to say I dun need a camera cause I was always the subject of the picture. Its people who wants to shoot me and not me shooting others. But reality struck that I am no longer anybody's subject except myself and so I bought one that can shoot myself. One that can twist the lens backwards facing myself. Hahah. Just kidding. I made myself sounds pathetic.

Remember when you were small? When you asked so many question from your mummy, "Why is the water blue? Why does the aeroplane fly? Why must we study? and of course Where did I come from? and how...." Well mummy is grateful to answer most questions, but as you grow older, if I ask... who would answer? I guess it comes upon a time where you just realise you cant depend on others for answer and you got to start searching for it yourself. I realize that answers seeked by myself will be well remembered. Like how to survive every relationship, what is love, what is my dream job, what is life. Cause theres no more standard answer anymore, you can ask for advice, but hey, theres no right or wrong. You just got to make a choice and dun regret. That's life. So if I ask, I know I won't get any answer, except from someone up there. But in the end, its better to ask yourself, ask yourself what you really want.
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Simply put, I din think the prediction would come so true. PSI level at 145... God save us. Blow the haze away.
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Wahh the haze so bad I cant recognized my home when I came back today. Okok I am just exagerating to make things sound bad. But seriously, my neighbourhood is going through major changes, with the construction of the extension of the MRT line to Tuas and the new condo next to JP call "The Centris". All these debris, smoke and the latest haze from our distant neighbours made my home into a deserted rubish dump minus the smell. Full of smoke, full of wasted metals.
Sigh, this haze is making my eyes more tired, and I heard to some their throat very uneasy and difficult to breath as well. Well go ahead and spit it out whenever you experience discomfort, and if it helps, think of the people who cause your misery. Spit and think. Not spit at them of course. Afterall Singapore will fine you should you spit anywhere else other than the toilet. Hhaaha.
Well the PSI will shoot up tomorrow. Why? Because everyone will be lighting their lanterns for lantern festival. Notice I do not say its deng long jie anymore. Its not a direct translation from lantern festival. But deng long jie sounds nicer, doesnt it? Well at least I still hear people say its yue bing jie. Oh gosh, they think what, mooncake festival? HAha the pot calling the kettle black.

Happy Deng Long Jie to all!
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Heard omething interesting bout Prince Charles lately. It seems that someone who worked close to him had retired and he spilled the beans on the perculiar habits that Prince Charles have.
1. He always labels his eggs like 1 to 7, in degree of hardness. If say egg number 3 is too hard for him today, he would switch to egg 4 and so on...
Conclusion: His cook is a super egg chef, able to cook the egg in 7 degree of hardness at precise levels. Well done cook.
2. He likes to use his own hand towel or toilet paper in the toilet. Every piece has a "c" on it, stands for his name I guess.
Conclusion: He is rich, and wasteful. Hand tower are not to be kept after use, why print the name? Well on the other hand he is rich, so what the heck.
Suggestion: Might wana install a golden tap. (whats the obession with toilet for rich guys, guess I will never know)
3. He do not give verbal orders, it seems he prefer to write it down in small pieces of paper.
Conclusion: He might like to eat mooncake, since the history behind it was passing secret orders in the mooncake.
Actually these arent much, just thought he is a poor guy, with his many perculiar habits beeing exposed. Everyone has those somehow somewhat, even me. Lets see, whats mine. Nahh cant share it on the web. Haha.

Ohh to those who are still angry over what an ex-president of Indonesia said bout Singapore being a small red dot. Please try to understand the following explanation gave recently. "I said then Singapore was a small red dot surrounded by a big sea of green, but that was to encourage the young people of Indonesia, to be aspiring like Singapore, to make it, despite so small." I think it went something like that. Well so he is not looking down on us. So lets forget bout the whole incident, bury the hachet. HAha. Little red dot eh... GrRRR... I will never forget.
Friday, September 22, 2006
I am on leave today, yet I am awake at the moment(actually so much earlier) and eating sucky cornflakes(not because I don't like them, mines all soggy and... yucks). I could have slept later and enjoy my day, why didnt it rain this morning. Not that it would matter cause my parents are quarreling again, gosh in the early morning. Bothm me and my brothers are so used to it, but shit it, he can still manage to go on sleeping. Why am I a light sleeper? Really makes me wonder why they still stay together, for the negligible amount of love they still have for each other? For us? Well we are grown up now, having single parent aint that difficult. I dont care, at least my mum would lead such a better life. I guess he would die if without us, literally. Ok guess its obvious who I dun like in the family. Shan't say anymore, afterall he is still my father afterall.

Burning question, is there true love at all? Most of us denies it, scorning at those seeking to find true love. Well is it that there is no true love or we just can't find it? Is it a lucky bunch of us is to find it and the rest of us just find a partner to live with and thats it for life.
It funny as I write this, afterall I am going out with my girlfriend later in the noon. Well at least whats between us is love, maybe not"true" love thats all. HAhah. Who knows what true love is anyway? Hands up anyone? Maybe we all owned it, just that we don't know.

Ohh ya, been getting coments from friends and colleagues, and yes I am getting f**. Ok maybe not f**, just a bit round hoh? HAHah yes I notice that myself as I look at myself in the mirror everydae and look at the picture of myself 5 years back on the wall. Totally different. Used to have a big, sharp face. All I have left is a big round face. Well I have been trying to make myself go back to normal(not that I am not normal now). Even the world is anti skinny people now. Theres a fashion walk in Paris, it says they are not using models with BMI below 18. THey dun wan people to think that skinny is the way to go. Ehhh, but I am not skinny, I am round. Don't know why I cite this incident. Anyway I will go for workout more frequentnow.

One last thing, pls be reminded for the last 5 years, there has been an increase in parkinglot summons lady(dunoe what to call them actually) from 25 to 800 plus. Next time you see some auntie with an urmbrella standing next to your car, DO NOT think that they are admiring your beautiful car. Yes its beautiful, but they dont do so in hot sun. Pls rush over to see if say sorry sorry sorry, leaving soon and see if you can save yourself 50 bucks. Otherwise you will hear, sorry cannot cancel, key in oredi.
Friday, September 15, 2006
Recently it occur to me that at my work post, it seem like I am a amourer/peasant in my tribe. No doubt people might say my tribe is one of the best in world, but it does matter which class you belong to in whatever tribe you are in. Being in the back line, I can only work twice as hard in making the best weapons for the front line warriors to go out in their hunt and war. Sometimes I even have to double act as peasants and tend to my crops and harvested animals. Its true it is the warriors that go out and hunt and bring back the "food" for the tribe, but where would they bewithhout our support? It is true not everyone has the skills or what it takes to be in the front line, but pls do not underestimate our efforts to the tribe.

Also the latest thing in news is the IMF. I personally do not understand why Singapore is spending so much on this event, when they are not appreciating it. They are even complaining how come we are not letting activist enter Singapore, where it is our organizing committee who did all this for their own safety. Harlow visitors, even the plates you eat from cost 90 bucks per piece. Not forgetting the 300 BMWs, the luxurious office and so much more...

Lastly, I heard a news regarding one woman being pushed down the MRT track with the train approaching as they quarrel. If not for the woman's quick reflex, she would have suffered a horrible death. Scary news...

Well guys, life is fragil, life is short. Lets make full use of what we have now, appreciate whatever we have. Life always goes on...
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Our Dear Mentor, MM Lee KY is such a brillant man. I do sincerely admire him in a way, that somehow Singapore turn from a fishing village to a well advance state of today, standing amonst power nations like USA and Japan. Well some may agree, some may disagree with this man's capabilities or achievements, Singapore did indeed turn into what we are today. Crocodile tears shed 40 over years back? I think any tear shed that brings success is a tear well shed.

Well why the sudden mention bout our beloved MM? I saw the papers this morning about his mention about China. How they use their weight to "push" pressure on us. Though they alway say all countries are equal, regardless big or small. But when they dun see eye to eye with Singapore, they say "1.3 billion people are very unhappy". This reminds us a fact, 4 million do not equal to 1.3 billion. So at the end of the day, come countires are still big, some are well, still small.
Also read from my company's website that he joined us as a special advisor. Well thats good news for all of us at Citi, though I would not see how that would directly affect me unless my bonus jumps 3 fold. Well thats a dream that nwill never come through. But hey, didnt they sing this famous song, "There was a time, when people say Singapore won't make it, but we did..." Hmmm. Keeping my fingers cross.
Lastly, my taxi driver today was so proud of Singapore. He also like our MM alot. He narrated an Indian friend telling him this:"In India, we have everything. We have Jewel, oil, and.... but we dont have one thing. We dont have Lee Kuan Yew.

Well next lets vent our anger on Singtel and Starhub. Me and my shifu life has been tormented by these 2 idiotic company who wanted to go through capital reduction lately but cant decide their mind as to who is eligible. Well maybe its not their fault, but who else can I blame? Guys out there, pls support M1 who has been the most obedient kid in town.

They will add to my hate list to companies who should be bombed. Ok in case people start to link this to terrorist act, this is pure fun and entertainment, from the writer's figment.

List of companies I wana bomb:
1. HSBC - torments me with 300 plus customers every quarter and the number is increasing as I am typing....
2. Suntec - OK, infact all the REITS comapnies, but being their 'leader', lets give severe warning to others
3. Microsoft - 160 clients, troublesome for every month recon, trouble when they decide to have a stupid dutch auction
4&5. Singtel and StarHub - both sucks equally. Why am I holding a Singtel line?

Well I guess the list can go on. So maybe comapnies can stop having corporate actions. Hmmm that would put me out of job. Ok, let them have simple CA next time. Lets wish upon a star tonight. Wish....
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
"Take my hand, bring me out of here." This seems to be a romantic line that a going to-be bride saying to some guy, to take her hand and run out of the church, away from someone she do not want to marry. But in life, I guess thats a line everyone longs to say, to say to someone who can save them out of their pain or misery.

More ofthen than not, most of us face troubles from all sources.
Some of us can't stand being in the sucky relationship. We have a unreasonable partner, who cant seem to know what we want(or rather what they want). Sometimes it seems that your partner isnt good enough, pretty or handsome enough, or worse still, rich enough.
For those looking to start a relationship, it seems, you cant seem to find someone right. Read something from my friend's blog. It goes something like this:
Either he is not handsome enough, or if he is, not rich enough. If he is handsome and rich, he is attached. If he is not attached, he has a lousy personailty. If he possess all the above qualities, he is a gay.
Haha what i think? Ok, maybe not a gay. He is god. Come on, we are not God, no guy is perfect. Nobody is.
For those in a sucky job(most of us is), do you wish to just shout out loud everytime your desk is piled up with work? When your boss is simply unreasonable or nasty to you. Or a stupid customer comes in and complain your job away. We have so much things to do each day, and yet we are faced with external factors that makes us stay back late at night in the office, without dinner. Afterwhich, if you have to take a long train ride back. Worse on top of worse.

So what do we do? What can we do? There is no one who can rescue you.
Some of us choose to adopt the positive attitude and be super happy and smile all the way. But when you cant take it anymore sometimes and frown, people ask whats wrong with you. Worse, they said you have changed. Worse still, you are tempremental.

Some take extreme approach and live in a world they create in. The world only contains nice people. If there are no nice people, they conjur them up. We refer to these people as psychotic. Ok just kidding. They are just idealistic. I do this sometimes, just sometimes.

Some take the practical way out things. Relationship sucks? Get out of it and find a new one. Work sucks? Get out of it and find a new one. Life sucks? Well, if you dare, get out of it and find a new one.(Better find WHETHER there is a next life before you do try. Personally I dun think its worth it)HAha. Well you cant just keep continuing to do that. YOu basically just get out from one shit hole into the other. Ok lets not be so pessimistic. You get out from one shit hole into a better shit hole. Haha ok, some of us do find better life after we dare to change. But we need to know one thing before that may happen.

Why are we often in mess? Its because we do not understand why we got into the mess the previous round and we keep getting into the same mess. Its human nature to blame something or someone when things goes wrong. One must learn not to blame anyone or anything. We must find the root cause of why things go wrong, instead of going around blaming anyone, or pushing issues to others. Only when we know whats wrong, we change. We take a more pragmatic approach and choose our new routes if neccessary. Otherwise its just shithole to shithole, till a knight in shiny armour comes along and save you (If he doesnt think you are smelly).

Well, easier than said. Who can overcome human nature. Who can live life to the fullest. Who can be happy everydae? Haha. So who can come and save me?
Sunday, September 03, 2006
Went to East coast yesterday. Its been pretty long since I been there and it was interesting to a point that there are many new activities that one can do there. Maybe can try some of it someday. Anyway had quite a nice crab dinner Jumbo and this time round the bun is much nicer. I guess the last time we ate here the bread was cold already. So Xiao Hui went back happy, afterall she was craving for some seafood dinner for quite some time already.

Anyway the main point I am writing today is it seems there is no point in getting 4 million smiles when some Singaporeans are still so rude. I met this guy pushing a pram yesterday and you know how big they are. He just parked it at the door and people had trouble squezzing in and out of the train. He did not care and just playing with his stupid palmtop.finally he got a seat but he just grab his baby and sit down and the pram was in the middle of the passageway, away from him. Cant he even pull it nearer to him? If anyone were to see, one might suspect what is a wandering ownerless pram doing in the middle of the train and it must be a terrorist bomb attack.

haha heard Mr Brown show. It seems since there are more than 4 million people in Singapore, what happen to the rest? Coz they excuse smile, people from Potong Pasir and Hougang. Hope our visitors will be more happy seeing us 'smile', afterall we are land of 4mil smile, 3mil999thousand smile better than Thailsnd, the land of thousand smiles.
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Was watching the Emmy's last night, it was great. I mean though I don't watch all the shows from US and I only know half the stars from there, I would alway want to catch the Emmy's. I mean the stars speaks with great humour and class (much better than our local stars at star awards), the gigs they pull is always great, the bloopers they make is cool and funny.

Something they said last night:
A director won and while giving his speech, he said, "when I was little, when I see the the award for best director..." I thought he was going to say how inspired it was for him as a child to see this award and him getting it was a dream come through. He continued"I walk up to the TV and said, oh when will you stop talking. I want to see the nomination for best Actor. So I am not going to thank the people now and finish my speech faster." I had never liked this award, what he said surprised me.
Another scripwriter came up and gave the following thank you speech for best scrip in comedy, "I don't have time to thank everyone I wana thank, so I thought I spell out those I don't wana thank. 1st is my 1st grade maths teacher who said I wasn't funny, I don't wana thank you. Second is my PA boss, who made me clean his shoes. Sorry I don't wana thank you too. And lastly God. I am sure you have every little part to play in me getting this award, but for making my hair go away, I am not going to thank you. That is way not cool."

Impressed I was. They even had a quite famous guy lock up in a glass box. The host said," We gave our dear friend here exactly 3 hours of air in the box. Should your thank you speech drag longer and this show runs over 3 hours, our poor friend here will die. Now thats a innovative way to make sure the show do not over run. AHaha.

You Are Ernie

Playful and childlike, you are everyone's favorite friend - even if your goofy antics get annoying at times. You are usually feeling: Amused - you are very easily entertained You are famous for: Always making people smile. From your silly songs to your wild pranks, you keep things fun. How you life your life: With ease. Life is only difficult when your friends won't play with you!

Sunday, August 27, 2006
Well been watching a lot of TV lately and noticed one interesting thing.
I was flicking the channel when an Indian show caught my attention again, with their usual singing and dancing. A thougth that always spring to my mind was why is the guy so ugly? It seems to me its alway this guy, a rather fat guy, seems old, with a weird looking moustach. Is this kind of guy every Indian girl's dreamboat? To us Chinese perhaps it will be a pretty weird taste. I guess if I grow any fatter, I might want to get a dark tan and grow some moustach and join Bollywood.

Anyway I really like Starhub latest commercial. Really funny. Really interesting.
Friday, August 25, 2006
Last dae of my holidae already. Starting work next mondae. Think I won't get used to it. Afterall I was living a slacker's life for the past 2 weeks. Just buming around, meeting up friends. But then again I must be thankful that I got the time to meet up with my friends from uni yesterdae.

It was really great seeing them, never had such hearty laugh in months. We had a quite an interesting dinner at Pepper Lunch(At least to me) that you sort of "cook" your own meal. It was quite nice. Was wondering why its called Pepper Lunch and not say Pepper Dinner? Or Pepper Meal. And the specialty wasn't even pepper. Hmmm.
Anyway we went up to Lido there and seated there to wait for movie to start. Then they were persuading ShiXing to go over and pick up a gal he think it not bad. Its funny how we can come up with so many pick up lines. Alas of course in the end nothing happened as he did not want to go over. Then we watched My Super Ex girlfriend. It totally blew off me. It was like what my firend said, "Worst movie in 2006". It was funny, or rather very corny. Its super lame, where the guy picked up this G gal (even the name is corny) that have super power. I mean what does it stands for? Good gal? Gorgeous gal? G spot? Haha anyway when they broke up, she threw his car into space, threw a shark at him while he was making out with another gal. A shark. A shark in a multi storey high concret building. And program to bite him, while not feeling a bit suffocated as it is out of water? That was the ultimate. But it did provide an opportunity to make me laugh when one of my friend watch until his leg cram inside the cinema. hahah we laughed till it was like, yes sorry to those siting in front. Sorry for disturbing you.

Oh due to sheer boredom and active persausion by my colleague, I visit Mr Brown's website and blog and I must say his podcast is really quite funny. Maybe you guys can visit it if you have not. One thing I remember once of the podcast goes along this line: "Singaporeans? You cant protest. You got no license to protest. You can only stand there and smile." Yes, smile, I think that will contribute to the 4,000,000 smiles we are trying to collect. AHaha.
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Its seems kinda stupid to coundown myself and remind how many days I have left before work restarts. Its kinda demoralising, but it does remind me that I must grab whatever opportunity to do what I havent been able to do while working. Not that work is that sian, (what am I saying, working life is sian), I mean its not that bad but come on, who likes work.

So what I have been doing the past few daes? Gaming... Spending time with my girlfriend.... Sleeping... Oh went to watch Li Sheng Jie Campus conert at NTU yesterday. Seems that I keep seeing superstars recently. Stars galore. Haha this time is comfort in the nice LT with cushie seats. His voice is damn super, and I am won over by him. I am easily influnced by others, it seems. I still cant change, the point that I am easily persuaded or influnced. Cant make up my mind, or simply, Xing tai ruan. haha. Good or bad, who knows, and who is to say. Link my blod to his song, enjoy.

Making my trip back to school is rather refreshing. I do realise I look kinda old to them. Man, people do grow old. I dun even look like myself in the photo I took last year on my ccess card.
Well squezing up the 179 bus, standing by the door. Missing 3 buses who simply refuse to stop coz theres no space. Everyone rushing to get down at Cant A bustop. Walking down from Cant A to cant B, a walk down memory lane. Looking at NBS, the place where I spend my daes in NTU most at. Tasting the not bad and cheap food in school canteen. Miss those daes more. Miss those daes where I can choose to wake up or not for lessons. Those rush to plan the best timetable. Those times with project groups practising till late at night for tomorrow presentation. Those times where you where shirt and tie and super dun blend with the T-shirt and bermudas of NBS when you have to present. Those daes near exams where you cant find a spot to study in school. Where you can joke or shout around when you are too bored studying. Where we buried our memories and dreams in our secret hiding spot in school. Yes, those daes. Those wonderful daes in school...
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Its day 2 of my holidaes and I am already counting down. I will sure miss this period of time when I get back to work and gosh, I realize this is like the longest break you ever gonna get once you start work. 2 Weeks? Slaves masters got to be joking when they give us work slaves only like 2 weeks for a long break in a year, and thats 365 days. After which, I am left with weekends and 10 days of leave. Give me a break. One day I will join the government and change the rules. Or better yet, join the labour union. Is it called that? Whatever. Who needs to know their name when they did absoltely nothing to aid my life.

Last Firday, thought my last day before my big break was to be a happy day. Instead, I worked till 1030. Well to some it may not be late, but to me, thats a record! I was finally the last of my department to leave the office. And for these 2 days, me was just jaming away my PS2 and went to see this NDP concert near my house, themed "a concert under the stars". It was quite enjoyable, in the sense for the first time I din have to stand while watching as we get to sit on steps. Manage to catch Kelly and Wei Lian, I must say they sing really well.
Well good life continues from now. So good...
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Haha think I had a similar post with a same title last year round. Yup its National Day again and yet I have to work. haha well not that bad lah, but spend the whole day doing REITS. Maybe alot of people won't know what is this, but I guess I will never forget these 5 letter word. Killer...

Anyway wanted to see some fireworks with Xiao Hui yesterday, but then our hungry stomach gave in and we had to source for food and I was late reaching City Hall. Every eating hang out was crowded and even Mac had que up to its doorsteps. Even though we din catch the fireworks, it was a good dinner at Kenny Rogers and I guess happiness at heart is all that matters. Oh I also saw Zhi Hai and the rest at Marina. It seems the whole Singapore is there as the crowd was like... well crowdy. Haha. Train pack like hell, as usual. Alas it was a good day.

Last weekend I was a bit crazy and did so much I never dared to do or got the chance to do. I went to dye my hair and bought a PS2. These few daes been playing so much games. Maybe a bit late to buy it, but all those games I been thinking of playing is just in front of me. Looks like my 2 weeks break wun be boring anymore!

Well thats all for now. Happy Birthdae Singapore!
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Its getting late at night, but I am still wide awake. Alot of things I do not understand and I cant just sort out my thoughts. What do I want? I dun know... Anytway I guess its best not to think and let things take its course for a while. I cant be happy being bothered by so much.

While every girl may look forward to wearing a glass shoe just like the fairy tale in the wedding, what can I look forward to? King Arthur's sword in the modern world cant do me any good. What can of fairy tale life can I lead? Life is never like a fairy tale, and it will never go according to what you plan. It seems I can never be satisfied with my life. Even when things may be going smooth. I alay tell others to be satisfied with what they have to appreciate what or who they have. Not that I don't, its just that even that I treasure with what I have, I cant be happy. It seems as though its not what I want.

But when I look at the other road, where it MAY bring me more happiness, I shrug with doubt. Can I lead that life? Do I really want it? I do not take a further step, so I turn back to my present life. A present life I dont dread, but nothing fanstatic to shout about. A life full of excitement will really tired me out I guess, but I guess a little won't hurt right? I don't take risk with what I consider precious. When the stakes are too high, I back out of the gamble. I consider my life now a bed of roses. I practically think I have everything that everyone ought to have. I try to convince others I am leading a ok life, but the fact is sometimes I cant even convince myself. Ironic, life that is.
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Saw this interesting link about past and present. Though I don't really believe it since all those born on my birthdate will have the same fate as mine, let me post it here for fun sake.

Please follow this link: http://www.thebigview.com/pastlife/

Your past life diagnosis: I don't know how you feel about it, but you were male in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern North China around the year 1700. Your profession was that of a trainer or holder of fine animals, such as birds..
Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
Revolutionary type. You inspired changes in any sphere - politics, business, religion, housekeeping. You could have been a leader.
The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
Your lesson is to learn humility and faith in spiritual principles. You should believe in higher reasons.
Do you remember now?
Saturday, July 22, 2006
Alot happened the past few days, well on second thoughts maybe not alot. Haha first of all, I went to watch a Pirates of Carribean with Xiao Hui. It was free tickets given by my company and though many of my colleagues gave bad review, I found it to be really nice. It was so funny. Dont' know why people said so. I just read Angeline's blog, she found it nice too. Hhaha you are not the only one easily amused the show, I was too.

Our mailstaff have been changing and on leave such that we have to keep filling up for her. I in turn have to stay back and do my work after office hours. Not that I mind, but is it so hard to find someone who stick to her job and like the job? I thoguht the saying goes, theres a job for everyone. And she replaced someone we used to like alot. After all we used to be all so happy. HAha things changed? Well I have became Adrian the mailman, enveloping 2000 plus letters everyday. Proud to say, I am a graduate from SMU now, Securities Mailng Unit. AHha.

Next, I board a train yesterday, only to be seriously disturbed by a super smelly man. I mean you could see the digust of the girl next to him once he walked in, and when the MRT shuts the door. Only come next stop when the door opened again did we have a chance of fresh air. God, please ban all smelly people into the train. Haha maybe thats too much, considering I may need to take a train next time I go for reservist or what. Come to think of it, no matter how many thousand times you wash the NS no. 4 uniform, the smell is still there. I guess theres no need to ban smelly people taking public transport afterall.

Heard a story about a tortise and a man. The man was showing off to his guest how great his tortise's endurance was and he place it under his table's legs to support the table. The guest was like "woahhh amazing!" The tortise didn't say anything but stayed there. Then the man said, that's nothing. He then took out a hammer and placed a cement brick on the tortise, wanting to smash on it. Unknowingly, the tortise suddenly ran super fast and bit the owner toes. This story tells us no matter how many times we bully someone or take someone for granted, when the other party doesnt make any noise means he or she is easy to bully. Never go overboard or that person might just fight back. Black or white, right or wrong, who is it to tell? If someone always bully me, and one day I couldnt take it and kill the person, am I the victim or murderer? Me typiong the word victim first shows I am more inclined to think I am the victim, and most of the time these inclination to protect oneself and pity oneself might push someone to do what one wouldnt even dare to dream of. On a lighter note, when your friend has always been nice to you, dont take it for granted. One day when he or she suddenly scream at you or don't talk to you, only you will feel the pain of losing someone.

Xiao Hui says people who reads self help books are alway lacking of that something. If you read bout happiness, you are lacing happiness. Same with those bout success. I guess she's right. I think the key to suceed for anyone is just one thing. That you want it. That you want something very much. The determination, passion and will to want something badly will make sure you are better than anyone in the world who are also fighting for it. I will make sure I remember this always. Always to know what I want and making sure I fight for it.
Saturday, July 08, 2006
A song I like really alot recently, catchy tune, meaningful lyrics bout frenship, wrote in a different manner.

第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天
你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的锻炼
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节
如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句
如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的胸怀志意我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你

你了解我所有得意的东西
拆穿我留些意怕我忘形
你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形像保密

Haha had a real talk with my boss yestersday, learned a couple of things in the hour plus talk, but I wonder... Does map out my career path better, but still... Anyway lets not talk about work.

Went to see my buddy's blog, realize he took so many photos of Hong Kong. Let me thanked him greatly now, for making Hong Kong such a wonderful place and with those photos, they represent Hong Kong so much! Think you are a great photographer! HAha. Thanks buddy.

Noticed something funny in workplace lift. Since our interior is full of mirror, I cant help but notice people looking at themselves, combing the hair, adjusting the dress while taking the lift. Its as if no one is there and they do it deliberately. I used to be too embarassed to do that, but somehow when I joined the bank, I also do that in front of strangers. Weird habit of the bank staff... Haha.

What defines a wonderful life? Getting what you want? Things going your way? If thats the case so far my life had been rather wonderful. Heard a saying on drama I watched just now. "A mistake, can help you grow better. A deadend, can help you jump to the next level" It all depends on how you look at it, and how you make you of what is suppose to bring you down, to bring you up to the next level. Every mistake, every fall, take the opportunity to pick yourself up and learn from it. Let me end with what my boss told me, "how many 10 years does a person have, lets live life to the best of what we can."
Sunday, July 02, 2006
The world cup is coming to an end, with only 4 teams left in the tournament. England and Brazil took their planes out of Gremany last night, breaking many people's hearts, I am sure. Argentina went home too, the best team in the tournament I feel. Ukraine put a brave fight, but Italy was too strong. From the way I see things going, Germany should take the cup, with its rather good players and superior home advantage. But every world cup has its twist, whats its going to be this time round.

Life has slowed down to the seconds. When I wake up this morning, I do not know what to do. Its 9am in the morning. Oh gosh. Well maybe I did not want Monday to come. Feeling the mondae blues on a sundae. Super PMS. My parents went on board this casino ship, free of charge. Meals included. Wonder if its that nice. Free things dun come nice, nice things dun come free. Theres no free lunch in this world, unless theres a catch. Skeptical? Pretty much.

With the Hong Kong trip behind me, I can only look forward towards August where I get to have my 2 weeks break. I havent thought of what I want to do or can do. Go on a short resort trip? Finish painting and fixing my car model which I have put on hold for so long? Hibernate? Buy a PS2 or Xbox and play my life away? I guess I have to stop dreaming. Afterall theres no leave for me in July. Its going to be a long long month. Better fix some dates and outing I can look forward to.

I just suddenly went to read my old diary. Was a really happy go lucky guy, many memories came back to me. Din wana lose anything I did not treasure. Wana be really happy. Wana be me.

You don't stop laughing just because you grow older. You grow older just because you stop laughing.

Something I used to say. Life's good.
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Woohoo, I am back from Hong Kong. It was a pretty short 4day 3 night trip, but I thought it was really pretty good. Contary to what many thing, I think the best thing is to go with your best friend, who can accomodate you and do things together, without complaining or holding you back. Alot of time its not where you go, its who you are with. Having the wrong company for a holiday trip can be the worst thing in life. Ask Sharrel, she knows. Aaha.

This trip made me learn many things. Besides the usual eating and shopping in Hong Kong, I really saw a different side to it. I went up the peak, took photos with 'Aaron kwok, Andy Lau, etc..." Famous people around the world in the wax museum. I even took wacky photos wearing the Marily Monroe dress with the famous pose on the blowing sewer. Haha also took a picture of me impersonating a Sumo kit. I finally know how tough it was on Andy Lau to flim "shou sheng nan nu", wearing the "fat suit". Hot and heavy.

I also went to Lautau island and visit Giant Buddha. I took back some scriptures. Haha like go journey to the west like that. THe mountain there, the view is so great. Even better than the peak. Dinoe the nature view of Hong Kong can be so great! I guess this is a side of Hong Kong many wont know. Its not just abut shopping and eating.

Though not bout eating, I still have to mention the food there. AHah. Din really try much, except the wantan noodles, roast goose, their toast bread breakfast and dimsum. Love their milk tea! The food may be slightly be more expensive than Singapore but the standard is much higher so I guess its worth it after all. Also if you look around you do get bargain buys like I ate a wonderful dim sum breakfast at a restaurant at only 10 sing per person. Eat until I am so full. Also I notice Seven Eleven is everywhere. Every 2 street there is one, also there is a Kmart to rival it. Zhi Hai also notice like every 15mins, an ambulance passes by the road. Wonder if crime rate is so high in Hong Kong or people are very careless there.

Last but not least is Disneyland. Its not really that big and those who been to Tokyo or US Disney would most probably be dissapointed. BUt to me, it fulfill my dream of visiting one, just because its not that expensive. But having a preview of how wonderful Disney can be I will really make it a point to go there, US and Japan I mean. The rides arent great, but the shows are fantastic. Bought small soveniers for my colleagues, friends and family.

I guess thats all for now. Lucky tomorrow on leave. So tired...
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
My first blog entry in office. 3 things to say:

1. Life is too short to worry about work. Why do I still look so grumpy after work?

2. I helped a pregnant lady pick up her things in MRT, bumped my head, never received a word of thanks or a simple nod. As if it was all obligation.

3. I forgot what I wana write. Short term memory lost. Oh gosh. Work has simply taken my life away.
Saturday, June 17, 2006
As the world Cup continues, I am betitng more and more. Not alot of money(I have learned my lesson), but the feeling this time is better. Playing small allows you to think more logically, it dun adds pressure on you. Hahah an advice to all puntters out there, play small play smart.

Super happy my Argentina trashed SM 6-0 last night, looks like they are on a roll! my miracle might come thru for them this world cup!

Read my firends blog, seem to complain her trip to Taiwan coz she went with her boyfren's sister as well. Gosh might be kind of sian with a lightbulb everywhere. Think she din really enjoy the trip as well. Hope my Hong kong trip will be great. Going with my best friend leh, haha. Planned wonderful places to go le, and it seems Hong Kong is not really a place just to shop shop and shop like others say. I guess the only thing that is going to spoil our mood is the weather. My Hong Kong custodian says its the monsoon season now. Can god dun make it rain for the 4 days I am there? Please...

Yesterday went to Jiahui's grandfather wake. Think she was prepared for this and she wasnt too upset already by the time I reach there. But was quite traumatising as I have to meet her whole family tree and people was like asking how old I am and where I work, how many brother sister I have and such. AHaha just like the movies. But they are only joking I am sure. It was nice as they are warm people. Oh when I say faimily tree I meant it. I think I met more than 20 people yesterday. What a day.

Today is Saturday. Time to enjoy, coz my pay day is here!
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Haha world cup is here and I din really cath the excitement and fever this time round. I din lay big bets and the only bet so far was a 10 dollar bet on my favourite team Argentina for the winner of the whole championship. Not really possible, but well you never know. A high payout and a dream come true for my team, its worth it. Keeping my fingers cross.

Work recently aint that nice, people around me losing morale, no motivation and simple hard to spur on. Hope this is just a temporary thing, hope my spirits can lift up. but got a headache corporate action around the corner, the weather will look gloomy ahead! ?Better get ready my umbrella.
Monday, May 29, 2006
End everydae with a smile. Thats it. Smile. =)
Sunday, May 28, 2006
A certain shopkeeper sent his son to learn about the secret of happiness from the wisest man in the world. The lad wandered through the desert for forty days, and finally came upon a beautiful castle, high atop a mountain. It was there that the wise man lived.Rather than finding a saintly man, though, our hero, on entering the main room of the castle, saw a hive of activity: tradesman came and went, people were conversing in the corners, a small orchestra was playing soft music, and there was a table covered with platters of the most delicious food in that part of the world. The wise man conversed with every one, and the boy had to wait for two hours before it was his turn to be given the man's attention.

The wise man listened attentively to the boy's explanation of why he had come, but told him that he didn't have time just then to explain the secret of happiness. He suggested that the boy look around the palace and return in two hours. "Meanwhile I want to ask you to do something", said the wise man, handing the boy a teaspoon that held two drops of oil. "As you wander around, carry this spoon with you without allowing the oil to spill."The boy began climbing and descending the many stairways of the palace, keeping his eyes fixed on the spoon. After two hours, he returned to the room where the wise man was."Well" asked the wise man, "did you see the Persian tapestries that are hanging in my dinning hall? Did you see the garden that took the master gardener ten years to create? Did you notice the beautiful parchments in my library?""The boy was embarrassed and confessed that he had observed nothing. His only concern was not to spill the oil that the old man had entrusted to him."Then go back and observe the marvels of my world", said the wise man. "You cannot trust a man if you don't know his house."

Relieved, the boy picked up his spoon and returned to his exploration of the palace, this time observing all the works of art on the ceilings and the walls. He saw the gardens, the mountains all around him, the beauty of the flowers, and the taste with which everything had been selected. Upon returning to the wise man, he related in detail everything he had seen."But where are the drops of oil I entrusted to you?" asked the wise man.Looking down at the spoon he held, the boy saw that the oil was gone. "Well there is only one piece of advice I can give you", said the wisest of wise men. "The secret of happiness is to see all the marvels of the world, and never to forget the drops of oil on the spoon."

A excerpt from "The Alchemist".

There are times when we go on search for what we think we want in life..pursue the kind of success. How often during that pursuit, we tend to miss out what we already have in our hands. When you realised it, if you're lucky you still can learn to redeem yourself and appreciate the very presence of it. If not, it just slipped you by and probably left you in a state of regret. Sometimes people tend to realise its importance until you lose it. What would be of an importance in your life?

Cherish.Appreciate what you already have and expand on you have.
Saturday, May 27, 2006

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

Sunday, May 21, 2006
Haha such a funny thing to say, Happy birthday to me. For the past 2 days, I have a lot of well wishes from my dear friends and colleagues. That made me really happy. My colleagues are really nice enough to buy a cake and present (something which I din expect them to buy coz its really somethign I want) for me and let me say once again thank you guys! Hhaha Shif u tell them I thanked you all again in my blog.

Yesterday I spend a nice and simple day with my gf and my secondary sch friends. Its been long since I last saw them and it certainly bought nice and funny memories bout my days in Chinese High. Its after all a real boring school, thankfully I have a classmates who dun follow the rules. Detentions and chores like cutting grass on the field really made me happier, not that I can grow up to be a more effective farmer or gardener, life without these memories would simply made life more dull.
My gf was really sweet enough to accompany the whole evening even though she was like super tired. Thank you dear.

One thing is I din managed to meet my uni friends for movie and it seems for the past few times I keep missing the outings. Really must make sure I will see them soon coz I kinda miss them. I guess when you are old, you start missing this and that. You start to be fond of memories and sigh... time passes you by. I am a quarter of a century old now. I m nearing 1/3 life crisis (given i live till 75-85), gottat start living LIFE and get myself a real LIFE! No more sighing and my wish for the past 10 yrs will remain, just to lead a happy life.
Saturday, May 06, 2006
Lost. A nice show. My current life. My deep feeling. My blur future.

What do we work for everyday? At the end of the day, I spend only 2 hours awake at home every weekday. During weekends either I rest or slack at home, or I go out till I am so tired to work for next week. Day after day, week after week, I am still at the same point. Corporate annoucements come and go, recon come and go. I am still here.

Had a BBQ today, well got to see a few of my nice friends. But Gis was like saying its going to be hard for us to meet in the future, is that true? Not that I dun understand this rule of life, I just maybe dun like it. Maybe its just me, I dunoe, I am lost.

Lost. Lose it and find it again. Found? I am lost again. Nothing is permanent. Change is for forever.
Saturday, April 08, 2006
Took a much needed break yesterday and went on leave for the first time in months. Didnt really do anything much, but was really happy enough, as I woke up later than usual, took short naps in the noon and spend the day with my girlfriend. Sometimes I think about it, its kinda scary that this lfe, working life, will continue for as long as I work. No more school holidaes, no more choosing a timetable that fits your life scheldue, and definately no more skipping classes when you don't feel like going. Maybe I havent got over the "miss school" daze. I am still thinking bout school. Haha most probably I still got many friends studying, and I stay so near my old school that I keep going back there. Though I cant deny the fact that whenever I see the salary coming in, it beats any other dae in school and you can see a smile beaming on my face.

Oh finally bought a phone I really like, N6280. The functions are good, camera quality more than sufficient for me and its slide motion really, well good to act cool. Though its quite a heart pain (cost so much to me), its much better than my last phone. Remember when I last bought my last phone, I wasn't happy. Not that happy. Till today I don't know why I bought that phone. Bonkers. Last round I bought on Vdae, this round I bought on April Fools dae. Hope I dun have to source for another come next year.
Saturday, March 18, 2006
Yes, Snoopy died. At least thats how I dreamed about 2 weeks ago. Weird dream, Woodstock coming to me and said Snoopy died and he wana die too. He can't live without Snoopy, so sad that the author had to kill Snoopy. I did not know what the dream was trying to say, not that I believe dreams say anything. But it suddenly occur to me that ever since that dae, I never had a nice dae at work. Going home late everydae becomes a norm, no more going out to have lunch breaks and work piling up like mad. My email went down, my ID deleted from the face of citibank by HR. I dun exist on the list, but I worked like mad. My boss said harsh things to me and the team, weak he said. He said the team was weak. That we have less work to do, and that I dun even ensure work is done properly. Not that I did a great jpb, but hey, juggling 2 process at the same time is not easy. I am doing 2 person's work with 1 set of time. Of coz I make mistakes, I admit. But pls be more understanding. But nevertheless, nothing is going to stop me, nothing is going to bring me down, HAha I am beautiful no matter what they say. I am going to up my gear now, prove to him that I am GOOD. I hate it when people say I am lousy.
So busy that I did not have even energy to record an entry in the weekend. But here I am, back to tell the world I still exist.

Work is an endless journey, it sometimes seems to go on and on, never ending, winding and you ask yourself why am I walking this tiresome and repeative journey? To keep yourself going, tell yourself why you started this journey in the first place. Do you want to take the easy way out and take a shortcut? Do you want to walk another road? Coz if you do, you won't reach the end and get what you want in the first place. Look behind you, do you want to give up the roads you travelled, the sweat and tears. No, I dun, I know what I want. I will get what I want.
Sunday, February 26, 2006
I heard something interesting on the radio, that says sadness can be seen as a good thing sometimes.

Sadness or grief stays with someone longer than happiness.
It reflects what you really want in this life or what you do not want.
It allows you to rflect on yourself what is the meaning of life.
Do not let it affect you, allow it to motivate you to move forward.

I guess its really hard to "hua bei fen wei li liang". I myself sometimes find it real hard to pick myself up when I am down. Though I very much believe we should not turn our heads down in times of challenge or aversity. If everday your life is a sunny day, soon your life will become a dessert, bored with no meaning of life. Sometimes a bit of rainy daes is needed to form those little drops of trouble waters to make up what we call life. Hahah its really weird for me to say all these when the dae when rain pours on me again, I will be so damned that why is it happening to me again. Who would not want a smooth sailing happy life, but circumstances and fate would not allow it to be so. Sooner or later unfortunate events hit you, so you can fall down, learn from it, pick yourself up and start anew again. I am still facing minor hicups in my working life, my relationship and everyday life. Sometimes I wish to just give up, or rather ask myself what is all these I am bearing with, is it worth it? the answer lies with the motivation and reason in starting with whatever task or realtionship with anything and anyone. Since we have chose to do something or be with someone, we got to try our best and keep it going till the day the other party gives up on you. In a way never regret, never give up.

Not that I am facing a downhill life now, in fact my life is going well, not that bad. But its at times like these where you still have the energy to remind yourself that to appreaciate what you have and not take things for granted. I am still learning, everydae. Maybe when there come a dae when I fell down and I have no one to turn to, I can come and read this entry and tell myself, come on, the road is still long, be thankful of whatever blessings around you, pick yourself up and lets move on.
Saturday, January 28, 2006
This post is dedicated to my friend Angeline. Its not been long since I last saw her, but she din look as carefree as before. She was the happiest friend I ever had, and theres nothing more than I want to see her happy(sounds funny, as if I like her). Hmm what I meant is whenever I feel down in school sometimes, seeing her will chase the worries and sadness away. Projects with her was never dull. Her smile has that power. I wana see that smile again.

But from her blog, it seems that she aint as happy as before. Money indeed cannot buy happiness, for all of us all owned more money than we were kids. Yes indeed when we were still schooling, we were still sort of like kids. No worries as to how the next dae will turn out, bad results will go away. The worse is failing a subject where you can take again next sem. A life without worrying bout tomorrow, you are still a kid (though many would probably argue at 21 how can you be a kid). Not that we have to worry alot now bout how to raise or support a family, but there are things you have to worry. And worrying bout and thinking bout such things do make us unhappy. Very unhappy. I dun deny I am much of a thinker. I think too much. I worry a lot. Thats why sometimes I am unhappy. I realized I am very happy when I dun think. Though when that happens, I say and do stupid things. But who cares, happiness is always all important.

Dear Angie, believe in yourself that you can do it. You will attain all sales figure you wish to attain. If you think you are up to it, anything is possible. At least I believe in you. Like you say, life is only spent once. Lets make it a happy one.

You cannot control the length of your life,
but you can control its width and depth.

You cannot control the contour of your countenance,
but you can control its expression.

You cannot control the other person's opportunities,
but you can grasp your own.

You cannot control the weather,
but you can control the moral atmosphere which surrounds you.

You cannot control other person's faults,
but you can see to it that you yourself dun develop or harbour provoking propensities.

You cannot control the other people's feelings,
but you can make sure you are true those you love.

Why worry bout things you cannot control?
Get busy controlling the things that depend on you!
Thursday, January 19, 2006
A few things to note. Really glad I made my way to a gym, never dissapoint myself. Will try again this weekend. Hhaha hope my new year resolution lasts...

One of the best things in life are your friends around you. They are there when you need them, they share your joy and sorrows, they support you and they are always there for you. You in turn can do wonderful things for your friends, seeing happiness on their faces will bring a smile to yours too. I love the comedy "Friends" a lot. I love the comic "One piece King" alot. Besides both being super funny, the concept of going through thick and thin with your friends and "I will be there for you" really makes me think a world without friends would be so lonely.

To all my friends, let me borrow this:
I wish you peace, I wish you happiness,
and most of all, I wish you,
LOVE.
Thursday, January 12, 2006
I never really knew my blog has such a wide coverage till people I dunoe starts leaving strange comments. The most recent directing us to a sleazy blog, hahah so better dun go there ah. But of coz it always feel great to have some interesting people who are serious about reading your blog like the forest ranger in US.

It has been raining dae and night these few daes. The weather feels cold and it has brought much inconvinence when travelling around. But it does makes sleeping at night better and this cool weather really makes one happy at times.

What a boring entry todae.. haha also dunoe why I wrote this. Keep watching TV while writing this, guess will stop here.
Sunday, January 08, 2006
Attended a ROM and baby's 1st yr old birthdae together yesterdae. Thought I wld really get a sense of how nice getting married wld be, with those sudden thoughts of marriage overwhelming me. Haha but it did not and I am still happy at my present life. But dun get me wrong, I was really happy at both occasion, just that these things are not for me at the moment.

At the ROM, the ceremony was simple, but really heartwarming. People who do not know each other can gather together to witness and bless the coming toghether of 2 persons. It was rather funny as Miss Candy as usual was blur and did not got ready the wedding bands till the ceremony was going on halfway and her relatives were like frantically searching for it while the solemniser went on and on... (yes, it was said on in mandarin, did not know what he was saying and it din sound right.) Oh and the solemniser did made us laugh when he said something. He started saying "before you two got married here todae, did you two ....." He paused for 5 secs, and during this 5 secs, all of us including the bride were like thinking, what has those things got to do with you. Everyone was laughing and thinking premarital sex has become such a common thing and it became his duty to remind us that it is not good. Also it occur to me that how can everyone be thinking of the same thing where he merely stop for 5 secs. Such dirty thoughts.... HAhaha.

Gina's baby is cute and I carried her for a while. Baby Giselle did made me think bout how having a baby can be so nice at times. But the key word is still at times. Take away late night waking up to feed the baby and crying and changing diapers and all other work, yes, babies are so adorable.
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Its a brand new year! Had a so so countdown nearby my house with those media corp stars like Ou Xuan. HAha and the next day went to shop for my friend's ROM gift. Was pretty much fun and catchign up with old friends was simply great. We chose to drink chinese tea in a chinese restaurant this time and we certainly looked much older than before. We used to chat in cool coffee houses, but then nothing bad with getting in touch with the traditional roots of your culture. In fact, the tea seems to make you chat better.

Have a god sis 's baby 1st yr old birthdae and friend's marriage coming up together this Saturdae will make my Saturday super busy. With my girlfriend's birhtdae around the corner, I am really lost as to what to get for her.

Another thing is my resolution to go visit gyms so much more often (ok maybe I shd write I will start visint gyms). Haha for those who know me, its gonna get really hard. I mean so HARD. But nevertheless, I will TRY. Serious. I will try. Will post the moment I step into one since that long long long long time ago. You get the picture.

Life never fails to get at you when you are least expecting. So just relax and not think so much. Life simply happens when you are busy making other plans.
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