Friday, January 05, 2007
What is enough, whats worth it? - 9:44 PM
This time of the year, many company are distributing bonus. Governtment workers are getting 2 months at least, some banks are giving bonus by year and not month. What of my company? If it gives me one month, then I must thank god. If it gives me more than 2 months, then I must thank ET. Well sadly, ET do not exist, so my dream will never come through. So pls God must exist, exist to make my employer appreciate us, sensible enough to see what the market pays and pity on us. What is enough? We at Citi do not ask for alot. We are not asking for what we deserve, we are not asking for what others are getting, we are just asking for a sum that is not embarassing to tell our friends, a sum worthy of what the top bank of the fortune 500 company pays. Whats worth it for a job to hang on to? So worth it that no matter how many hours you work, how many shit you get you stay with it. Put aside nice colleagues, great laughter, nice pay you need a nice boss? I dun know how good my job is, all I know we face typhoon from 9am to 11am everyday. Then we get sunshine after that till 2pm. Then a tornado will start till 5pm. If I ever make a mistake, we prepare all the materials to arm ourselves for the earthquake. Such are disasters we are use to everyday at work. I guess no one will understand except the lucky 4 of us at Asset servicing Team. From motar mass bombing to silent torpedos with "??" and "done?". Life is not exactly at its best right now. I don't know how to call it that way.
When she sent me to another team to help out and shout out team spirit and at 6 plus she ask how come you all still cannot go back, it was super disheartening. Theres no team spirit in the first place, not even the spirit. It was lost somehow sometime ago, and I do not know how or why. Only consoling fact is to get back home as early as possible, away from the troubles and unhappiness. I do not know why work has turn that way.