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Monday, June 25, 2007
Just 6 months back, my life was on track. My career seems to be going on the right path. But recently its really bad, like I might mentioned umpteen times in my blog. Shan't go through horrid stuff again.
Just feel demoralized why things turn out this way and I can't help it. I tried so hard to no avail. She criticised me for speaking up for the team. Its the truth that she do not wan to hear. Its that not what she want? Employees that dare to speak what on their mind? My colleague say to keep quiet and I will be well. Nothing I say can change the way things are going on at the moment. I beg to differ then, but guess I was wrong.

I wana be strong and survive this ordeal, but it seems the easy way is to run away, away from this problem. I wana go somewhere higher where i can achieve better things and I hope this is not a sign of escaping your problem. I will try again to solve the current issues, so that when I leave one dae, I know I did not leave cause I could not survive here. But that I conquered here, that's why I moved on.
I guess I just have to put it aside and see how things go. Let work just be work, and not let it affect me. Silly me. Said this numerous times to myself and yet it didn't sink into my subconscious.
Haha Adrian Adrian, when will you ever wake up?
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Went to York Hotel to eat high tea buffet todae. Well though the food ain't super fantastic, but the service was quite nice and heartwarming. I was looking at the Chinese pancake (crepe-like food) and I asked waiter at the counter for coconut topping but was disappointing they just ran out of it. But the main chef who walked past overheard me and said it will taste nicer with banana. He went over to the fruits section and slice the banana and personally prepare it for me! Haha had a nice chat with him and I return to my table with the only banana Chinese pancake in the whole cafe. Just before I left, he was so nice to serve me with coconut pancake I wanted! To think he remembered me and walked through all the tables to find me! Very heart warming service, considering its buffet. Nice!

Ona side note:
Been through too many rehearsals in my life to wana go through it again. All those rehearsals ended up in nothing, and it probably will in future. All I wana do now is appreciate all the nice friends around me, see the world and try lot of things. I wana live life just the way I wana. Used to live it for others, always been. Just wana think more for myself now, and make myself a better person. Haha sounds corny. Maybe this thinking is just another flash in the pan. Well who knows. But that's the marvellous part of life isn't it? Nobody knows what will happen tomorrow. Well.... MAYBe.
Monday, June 18, 2007

Saturday, June 16, 2007
Things are getting out of hand at work, and things arent just the same anymore. I am getting home later and later, so are my teamates. There was even a time I was second last to go home, only to lose to the permanent resident of Citibank Tampines Junction 7th floor. Thoughts of becoming the new PR makes me wana sigh. Thats NOT the life I wana lead, certainly not when I signed my name on the line when I first joined. Ever since official timing ends at 530, things have been so much worse. Wonder why upper management even bother to make it that way.

We took jobs from other people so they can go home early. Boss you did a great job. Now they are going home earlier. But what about us? We were never in his eyes.But we are optimistic enough, we never put our heads down at work, and we continue our happy style of work, and that made other think that there is nothing wrong with our team as we continue to laugh and talk. And when people come by to see we are still around, its as if they are visiting a patient or that they seen a ghost. Asset Servicing Team is not suppose to stay beyond 8pm. Common phrase like "What happended Adrian" and "what are you still doing here" and "Is there something wrong with your team?". Yes there is something wrong with my team. We are stupid enough to help you out and you DO NOT know? Dont have to do until so the END right?

God is fair they say. Feng shui lun liu zhuan. One day we will walk out of the door 7PM again. One day.... Till now. Jin shi bu tong wang ri.
Sunday, June 03, 2007
We live in a world where old sayings has a different aspect to it, and many of the advices it brings to us may not hold anymore. Change is inevitable in this fast paced world we live in, so thinking has to change.

1. The early bird gets the worm.
Would really depend if you are the bird or the worm isn't it? I guess if we happen to the the worm, we would want to wake up late to avoid the bird. Different people have different needs and habits. Thats why some of us work in the Euro or New York zone timing.

2.You need to venture into the tiger's den to get its cubs.
Why would I enter if I jolly know there's a tiger lurking in there? Stupid thinking unless I am super prepared. No point venturing into the danger nowdaes, since wildlife are protected nowdaes. Haha. The truth is, nowdaes there is no need to get the cub yourself. Get someone else to do it. Thats what managers do these daes. So how do they tell the staff to do it? Staff say, "There are tigers inside." Manager says, "how do you there are tigers unless you go in? Who knows what you will find inside. I am giving you the chance..."

3.The hare and tortoise race story.
Why would one be a tortoise when you can run fast like the hare. Just DO NOT stop and rest and you will be the champion. In this society, no such thing as slow and steady win the race anymore. Its run and never look back.
But then again it would also depend what race you are having. Its nice to be a tortoise if its a swimming race. So again its good to be flexible. Some people are damn good at that. No offence.

4.Opportunities knock at your door once.
First of all, who still knocks at the door nowdaes. We press the doorbell. Thats why opportunity would not knock on our door now. Those that knock are not chances, but "opportunities" that makes you trip and pesky salesman. Even salesman press doorbell. So moral of the story, you cant depend on chances to find you, you got to find that opportunity yourself in order to be successful nowdaes. Wake up and be pro active!

Cant really think of anymore le at this moment. So tired after today's exams. Halfway through the paper I was seeing doubles and I cant even shade. It was that bad. Finally its over, till Dec I guess, when I become a CFA level 1 candidate once again. Oh shit, preparation starts in August. Why do I "torture" myself? Haha.
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