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Saturday, July 21, 2007
Since young, we often seek for what we call happiness. But at times we got a bit mixed up, a bit confuse. Along the way, we lose the meaning of happiness. We start to seek more and more in life in pursuit of what we think is happiness. From our mum, we learn from their experience. Together with our friends, we study new things. With our love ones, we create a new life. We go out searching for happiness, and along the way we suffer. Be it stress, human conflicts or the feeling of being never satisfied. Till we are so tired we return home, to our true self. But its too late as time do not stop. Before you know it, childhood is gone. The young daes are no longer there. Do we want a life full of eternal pursuit? Is that going to bring happiness? Be it higher education, higher position in job, more money, bigger house, bigger car..... The list goes on. Perhaps at the end of the dae you will be happy, but with a tired soul. Thats what happen to most people, they run till they cant run. When they look back, they realise they have run a full stretch of life without enjoying the sights of life. They ran past 40 years of their life without stopping to relax, to see what else is wonderful in life. Thats why most of us miss our childhood, our schooling life. Frankly, thats the only time we were walking, strolling and not running.

Till now I do not know what I want in life. Though I understand these things, its not easy to let go when the whole world are chasing such things. Can I truly lead a happy life one dae? I believe I can. For thats what I want in life. 我想回来, 天冷就回来.

从前对着收音机 学唱旧的歌
我问妈妈为什么 伤心像快乐
妈妈笑着 说她也不懂得
我想出去走一走 妈妈点点头

天冷你就回来 别在风中徘徊
妈妈眼里有明白 还有一丝无奈
天冷我想回家 童年已经不再
昨天的雨点洒下来 那滋味叫做爱
别在风中徘徊 天冷就回来

渐渐对着收音机 学唱新的歌
我问朋友为什么 做梦也快乐
朋友笑说 他从不相信梦
我想出去走一走 朋友点点头

天冷你就回来 别在风中徘徊
朋友的眼里有明白 还有一份期待
天冷我想回家 年少已经不再
今天的雨点洒下来 那滋味就是爱

现在对着收音机 听自己唱的歌
我的他问为什么 幸福不快乐
我微笑着 说我也不懂得
他想出去走一走 我对他点点头
天冷你就回来 别在风中徘徊
我猜我眼里有明白 还有一丝无奈
天冷他没回家 我仍然在等待
明天的雨点洒下来 那滋味就是爱
别在风中徘徊 天冷就回来
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
I felt pretty bad when I saw this news a few daes ago. I learned from the library that my favourite author Sidney Sheldon had died. In fact he passed away on in end Jan. It seems to me that I am oblivious to alot of things around me. I was still anticipating his new book. But it never would come now. Well he may not be the best write out there, he accompanied alot of my teenage times, till I am 26 this year. Thank you for painting beautiful exciting stories for me.

One look from her tamed the wild me
One smile from her makes my dae better
One word from her make my heart skip a beat faster

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
This morning it just proves how Singaporeans can be damn inflexible sometimes. The left escalator at Boon Lay MRT broke down and thus people had to climbed up the escalator. But the thing is, the one on the right is working and people are not using it! And the people are crowding on the left trying to climb up a non-working escalator when the right side one is working. Just because you use the left one every dae means you have to use it even when it broke down right? And the management already changed the right side one to facilitate us to go up and so few people uses it. And its not the first time happening le. Life can be so routine at times.
Saturday, July 14, 2007
A sudden thought of mine made me search the web for the 7 deadly sins, something that Ray and I have been trying to recollect for ages.
Here they are as below. How many do you have? Haha I guess it takes courage for one to look at himself and admit his own faults. Only when you see yourself, you can improve to be a better person. Haha, take heed not to fall too deep into anyone of them... I am a guilty person to some of these too!

Lust is usually thought of as involving obsessive or excessive thoughts or desires of a sexual nature.

Gluttony with an overindulgence of food and drink, though in the past any form of thoughtless excess could fall within the definition of this sin.

Greed is, like Lust and Gluttony, a sin of excess. However, Greed (as seen by the Church) applied to the acquisition of wealth in particular.

Sloth as being more simply a sin of laziness, of an unwillingness to act, an unwillingness to care.

Vengeance may be described as inordinate and uncontrolled feelings of hatred and anger, the desire to seek revenge outside of the workings of the justice system and generally wishing to do evil or harm to others

Like Greed, Envy is characterized by an insatiable desire; they differ, however, for two main reasons: First, Greed is largely associated with material goods, whereas Envy may apply more generally. Second, those who commit the sin of Envy desire something that someone else has which they perceive themselves as lacking.

In almost every list Pride is considered the original and most serious of the seven deadly sins, and indeed the ultimate source from which the others arise. It is identified as a desire to be more important or attractive than others, failing to give compliments to others though they may be deserving of them, and excessive love of self (especially holding self out of proper position toward God). In perhaps the most famous example, the story of Lucifer, Pride was what caused his Fall from Heaven, and his resultant transformation into Satan. Vanity and Narcissism are prime examples of this Sin.
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Went Kayaking todae. It was kinda fun, kinda relaxing to be in the middle of the lake, basking in the sun and not thinking bout work. Its true work has not been kind to me in recent weeks, but I am trying hard to forget bout work after working hours and I dun like my weekends to be dull anymore. After that, I went KTV with my dear friends and it was really fun. We sung songs from different era and those were the daes. It seems that I having been walking down my memory lanes these two daes eh?

Perhaps its a sign of escaping of reality but who really cares. Haha like the teaching of Buddhism goes, one should not wast time worrying bout needless thoughts, and that its often one who make himself unhappy. Its a matter of choice, and one can derive happiness from oneself, and not through others. And once one became happy, he or she will have the power to make another happy. Gosh what am I tattling about again. Its even too chim for myself to understand. Will get the real para from Gis to post it up here.

Whatever memories we may have, it becomes the wake that is left behind by the boat. The wake has no energy to power the boat, it is you who power the boat. You can look back and smile at times, but always remember you gotta move on. Its not easy, I know. But life goes on and you have to move on. And so the story goes...
Saturday, July 07, 2007
Went to watch Transformers today. It totally rocked my world. I was almost the last from my group of friends to watch it and seeing all my friends so hyped up about it, I was kinda worried that my overly high expectations might ruin the show. I mean it is my all time favourite cartoon show and when I knew there was going to be a movie so real life about it, I was kinda skeptical about it. To me, how good can it get (cartoon is cartoon) and if it turns out to be another Spiderman 3(FYI to me Spidey 3 kinda sucks), I would be so sad. And after hearing so many raving comments about it rocketed my expectations and I could not wait to watch it. And so I did todae. Well thankfully it not only turn out to be not sucky, it was great! I was almost at the edge of my seat the whole time (Okay, the truth is I was laying comfortably on the cinema seat and it was probably my mind that was on the edge), my eyes was feasted with techy CGs and cool scenes. All the fancy scenes and robots was fake, but I was loving every minute if it. It was even funny and plus point is Megan Fox was hot. Ok so was the yellow Camero! Haha. Point is when the Autobots came out crushing those guys in the end, I felt like standing out and shout "Go Autobots!" Only reality on the other side of my brain (well stuck in throughout the show) made me realise, hey I am not in my living room and yes, I am perhaps too old for this kinda things.

But it revived my childhood memories (though the story kinda different) and yes to most, its a no-brainer all action kinda show to watch. I think its important to be a child sometimes, except most of my friends would say I am still living a child's life sometimes. I tend to still do insane things, childish things just to keep young at heart. Its important you know, and that will make you so much happier. So much is lacking in this world that few people would treat others with their heart. Its important to yong xin to dui tai people, not only will that make others happy that they are important to you, it makes you live.
Live like you never live before, theres always a child in you.
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
Finally got back online. Something went wrong when I installed a new anti-virus program and it seemed to delete a important file for my MSN explorer and MSN messenger. Days without logging into the cyber world was quite a torture, which is something like in Die Hard 4 where technology has become a part of our daily life. I cannot imagine a week without my cell phone and internet. Gosh, I have became a technology dependent patient.

Just wana add that Candy wedding was one of the best I have ever attended in my entire life. Guess its the company that matters. A friend's wedding is really kinda different. Everything was nice and hip, which is so her style.
Hey Candy, if you are reading this, you looked really great that night and hope you have a blissful marriage!

Its about time to assemble my Ocean's 8 to seek the national treasure. But my crew is left with only 3-4 people. Oh man.... Can we ever succeed? Haha
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