Thursday, August 23, 2007
God, please help me.... - 10:08 PM
God save me from my eternal pain - that was exactly how I felt 2 hours ago, and pretty much how I feel at work the past week. Well before I get to work, lets talk bout my trip home. A stupid fat Indian man had to sit beside me on my way back. Not being discriminating here, but he was talking super loud on his mobile! So loud I think the whole cabin could hear, so loud that despite me wearing earphones with loud music, I could hear. It was a torture, plus I could not understand his native language. So it was loud unbearable ramblings. To top it off, he has BAD breath. I could smell it and I had to turn the other side. And he took off his slippers and was fiddling with his feet. I tried to focus on my story book, but alas it was way too hard. I try to sleep it off, but man it was tough. If I had a pen I would poke him. I could have walked away, but I was stubborn. I sat there first, why must I move? Because of him, super not worth it. Could not believe that after every station he was still there, beside me till to the last stop!After I got off, I had a sinister thought, I will kill him if I ever see him again. Maybe being at office with all those bad emotions I am feeling is making this way. I keep saying I wish I can take my pen and stab myself during work. Work has again become sick. Dragging myself to work doesnt help every morning. Life is expected to take a worse turn a few weeks down the road. Really God, please help me. I know you love me.