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Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Wahh its been pretty some time since I wrote an entry. Nothing spectacular happened in the past week. Except for some inner self fighting bout some issues, life been pretty good. I mean the problem with me is that I am easily influenced by others, and sometimes my actions and decisions are swayed towards their direction. Due to privacy reasons, haha of coz I can't share something as personal as this on this publice web where most of my friends know liao. Besides this inner battles, the problems of jobs is also upsetting. Reality has sunk in that its seriously quite hard to find a job you want in the economy todae and while on one hand I must thank UOB to call me up personally for my own error, I am really dissapointed in most of my job applications. I don't know what to do, and simply too lazy to even send out resumes. All the good banks most probably won't want someone like me. Haah god bless me on this.

Other than this, of course there is the ever present FYP. Faced with a choice between mind and manual labour, our group chose brawns over brains, helping her get 2000 responses and that allows us to stop our FYP in about a week's time i guess. Good choice or not I don't know, we were practically left with no choice cause that seems to be the choice she wants us to take. In life, there appears to be choices. But more often then due to circumstances and other external personel implications, we are left with only one route to take. A choice is no longer a choice, its a path u have to take.

Saturday, January 22, 2005
"When is it your turn?" That is the last question that i expect from my relatives when I attended a wedding dinner yesterdae. Alas, that question shot right into my face I was stunned, not knowing how to answer except smile and say not so soon. I am only 24 my dear relatives. Oh gosh, since when am I the same batch with my cousin who married up there on the stage? Hahah can't believe I am getting so old in other people's eyes. Must go do some facelift, hahah.
By the way the wedding dinner started real late and the hotal at not enough parking lots. My the time they started the dinner or should I say supper at 9pm, my stomach was telling me any food that is served on the table will be nice. It turned out they all were, from the cold plate to the last desert, mango with sago. All was well, the bride was pretty and her other half's hair was white. (He dyed it white)

Ok wedding aside, I am kinda disspointed and angry at myself for giving the wrong email address to UOB forum. NOw I can't join my friends to go to the networking night together. I also lost a potential night where I can get closer to the job. I also probably showed to them I am not a careful person, thus not suitable for a bank job. Have I really no fate with banks? Well its no big deal and life goes on. Hahah. Even when the stars go out each night, I will not. For I am still here. I am all you see.

Thursday, January 20, 2005
Ok! I officially state that I HATE renovations. After deciding to skip my morning semiar, I was punished by being tortured by idiotic renovation noises from upstairs as early as 10am I think. Can't I even sleep late? I plugged myself into my earphones and played games at my computer, trying to salvage how little pleasure and joy I am left with. Immersed with the wonderful story line and music, I was soon lost in the world of swordsman and magic. Little did I noitce that the irritating noise has stopped. I was happy, for a while, and soon thereafter it came back. I looked at the watch, they have gone for lunch just now, which explains the serenity. With the noise back, I thought I might as well go for my lunch. When I got back, it was so much worse! While having my bath, it was deafening. At the last straw, I decided its time to escape to school to study. Yes, even studying is better than being tortured by noise.

So here I am in school, writing this post. Yes, I am not studying again, coz I met Zhi Hai and Darren here. Okok, so I m finally going to open my BF308 in a while, provided no one msg me throgh msn. Hahaha.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ After a few hours in school.....
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Todae had a very fun dae. Long time no go arcade play untill so fun liao. Hahah first time playing those basketball shooting game in arcade where those coupons will run out. Hahah in the end with pathetic 12 coupons, we can only change a small but cute sharpener with paperclips. Memories like this dun happen everydae....

Wednesday, January 19, 2005
Ah yes, I should be attending my lecture now, BF308. However this morning, I just couldn't instill much energy into me to propel myself out of bed. I toss and turn, deciding if I should skip my lec. This is in fact the first official lec I purposely skipped, hahah not talking bout the countless AB311 useless lecs that I will be skipping for the rest of the year. In fact I will be skipping my BF221 seminar tomorrow. Oh my god, sounds horrible as I type these out. Unlike Jian yong, I don't feel bad about it. (reading your entry mades me a little though) Why am I like this? This is my last sem and I got no motivation at all. Super holidae mood now. Man, this sem is particularly expensive. Every lecture I miss cost $82.60!!! No wonder the professors earn so much. How I wish I can be one too.

Ok! I will go to school now and read up on the lecture I miss just now! I will aspire to be the best student this sem! Haha how I wish all that I say will come true. I feel that my fingers are more likely to move than my whole body. At the thought of studying, my whole body feels weak, tired, and my eyes will get smaller and smaller. Haha regardless, I will pull myself out of my chair now and off the computer. I will go to school now. Thats the most I can promise myself. Whatever happens next, I can't say. Muahaahahahhaaa.

P/s: By the way, Liverpool lost to burnely! Oh my god, why is my team going the other direction?>


Sunday, January 16, 2005
Life is indeed fragile. We can leave this world any time, given recent events that continues to shock the world. I remebered Zhi Hai post this question to us, how long do we want to live in this world? With Sharrel and Darren saying they want to at least experience working life, and giving birth, I somehow wonder what our life is all about? Just to work hard and make sure our next line of descendants made it through theirs? I believe we should all live a life worth living, doing all the things we want to do, however stupid they might be. This life is about making a difference in others, and more often than not is to show care and love for another person. This love not only means the person you marry, it readily extends to anyone on this planet you wish to love, including people you don't know. I just caught Troy on VCD recently and remember Brad Pitt joined the war because he wants to be remembered by many people even thousand of years later. I don't need to be remembered by so many people, however I do wish I make a difference in other people's lives.

On a lighter note, I saw this funny scene in the MRT. 2 guys and 1 girl came in with only 2 seats left. The girl went to sit immediately, leaving the 2 guys standing. So after much debate, one guy,A, took the chance to sit with the girl while the other,B, sat beside me. So A talked happily with the girl while B was frustrated and only flipped his papers beside me. When I say flip, he literally fipped at 1 second per page. DOubt he can read any news at that rate, Hhaha. Ok so after a few stops, the seat beside the girl got vacant and she booked it and signaled B to go over. From then on she ignored A and only talked to B. So its A's turn to flip the papers fast forward style. Another few stops later, the situation changed. An old man came in and A gave up his seat, from then on, it was the old man talking to the girl all the way. Both A and B can only read papers. Haha its so funny all 4 of them left at the same stop too. Sounds like a mini drama serial.

Thursday, January 13, 2005
Yes its a super boring dae. Well I had my 2nd Wealth managment lesson, so so boring. What a contrast from the first lesson, this second leson is so dry. Really have the urge to drop this subject, if not for the fact that this subject is default B and its a nearer exam date.

People have been telling me how fortunate we business people are with our super slack timetable. It appears that all my lessons ae their free periods and vise versa. TO me, living a slack life have been part and parcel of life for the past 3 yrs. I wonder how will i adjust to working life? Everydae 9 to 5 and no more long holidaes. Man, what a dreaded feeling. Well whats worse is that can I find a job? As i get nearer to my graduation date, my fear of not landing a job really makes me feel that not getting a job = failure. Having paid so much to get the stupid degree, it feels stupid to not even get something as simple as a job which pays only about $2000 everydae. Well time to leave these worries behind and embark on this short holidae I give myself this weekend! Woahhh!

Tuesday, January 11, 2005
It was long long weekend for me. For those in army, having long weekends is good, but for me, not that its not good, its just too eventful. I spend my fridae with my Xiao Hui, coz I have to give her early celebrations for her birthdae. I took keys from her roomate and hid in her room, hanging lots of roses at her windows. Then we went out for a wonderful dinner and after we came back to her hall, I lit up candles in a heartshape and took out a birthdae cake to surprise her. She was totally caught by surprise as she din saw me bought the cake. Haha it was in the fridge all along. Well if the things I planned was good, I din end it well as I forgot to message her happy birthdae at 12 midnight on saturdae. I even got her hint of asking me to do what I should do and I called her asking what should I do. Haha she sounded unhappy and didn't want to tell me and so I went back to sleep, pondering what's wrong. I then suddenly realize what I am suppose to do and I jumped out of bed to call her. Haha so I got a big scolding from her when I finally remembered and I got off the hook by singing her a birthdae song. Hope by writing this down, I won't forget again next year. HAha.

So off to sundae where I was the facilitator for my ECA's Amazing Race. Well we ran around Singapore the whole dae, through rain, mud, sand and sea. Ok no sea, but we were near it. So eventually my team came in 2nd, and all was happy.

Then came mondae where I came back to school, only to realize my class index got swapped by the stupid E-swap system! I was so angry at the school and I emailed them twice in a dae and called up Jenny Goh. SO despite the system of the school still being lousy, I applaud them for their "fast" response in attending to my request by the time I got back from school that dae. They just escaped another round of emails and calls inteded for them the next dae.

Now is Tuesdae, a morning which seems forever. I intended to send out my resume for job apllications. I took 2 hrs just to draft out the perfect resume and on my first attempt to send it, the website hanged and I do not know if my attempt was successful. It totally drained my morale and i do not wish to apply for any other jobs for todae. Little misfortunes are starting to fall on me liao, but that will not deter me from moving on, from tomorrow that is. Todae? I will go on relaxing liao.... Hahahah.

P/S: Meet the Fockers is very funny!


Thursday, January 06, 2005
Todae I had my first wealth management class, was pretty interesting, the tutor called my names so many times. Asked me stupid questions like "how many wives i need?" and "do I have one now?" Hahah. But one thing that she said struck me was "in life, sometimes you are at the wrong place at the wrong time." How true this statement was, because the bus I took this morning broke down in school and I have to walked all the way from canteen 2, up the hill and down to S3. TO made things worse, I purposely ran after this bus to catch it, only to curse my luck for chasing a broken bus. Sometimes in life, what you want in life may not end up to be what you really want.

Well I went by the secret hiding place for our resolution cans and found that the grass there are growing much better than usual. Its in such a bright green colour that I cant help but feel that I have made this world a much better place. Haha. Enough of my nonsense, time to log off liao. Though todae isnt the most perfect of daes, life goes on and may a better tomorrow come!

Monday, January 03, 2005
On the 3rd dae of New Year my angel said to me, "Bless you, hope you have a wonderful year ahead!" Hahah ok it was an imaginary angel, but indeed I had a great start to this brand new year that belongs to me! As mentioned I had a wonderful New Year's eve, and I went to chalet yesterdae! Came back todae and I fixed my timetable to a 4 dae week! Well it ain't something to be proud of, but my previous timetable was much worse and more importantly alot of my friends are joining me in that class, especially my best project groupmate, Angie!

Well nothing else much happened except my best friend Zhihai went to work for the first time todae! Haha he did absoultely nothing as his supervisor went away. Well hope everything go smoothly for him tomorrow! Oh been really keen to buy a new handphone, siemens S65. Anybody heard anythign bad bout it? Haha must tell me ok! Got to close off liao, life's good!

Saturday, January 01, 2005
Haha this is not the first time I am writing a blog, but yet I still have this funny feeling, as if its the first time. Just like love, no matter how many times u been in it, there will alway be this special feeling, for this special someone, everytime. Every new relationship will be a refreshing one, though some of the problems alway seem to recur back to you. Just like as we welcome this new year, we welcome it with open arms, thinking that this year will be better than last year, and yet have this feeling that we will never be able to keep to our resolutions.

I had an eventful New Year's eve this year, as I gathered some of my friends back to school to bury our resoultions cans. We had alcohol in school and everyone of us got a little high. Haha school is fun when there are no classes. Finding a place to bury it is so fun and we are careful to escape the security guards. For national treasure hunters out there, the clue is first drain, first turn, first hole and first armlength. Haha. As to what dreams we burried inside, i guess it will forever remain a secret to you guys who are not there. We felt we did a great job at burying the tin, hoping to dig it out 2.5 yrs later, somewhere in 20/07/2007. Lets give a round of applause to Ocean's 8. Jing Jun, Giselle, Bang Zhong, Chao Liang, Karfai, Evelyn, Zhi Hai and me! Special thanx to Lynn and YiQuan as well!

This new year also made me realized a lot of things. I need to learn how to fight for the things I want, I need to live my life to the fullest. I want to tour around the world which is ever so big. I want to leave behind my sorrows and embrace happiness always. Haha okok, I don't really have much sorrows, but I wana lead a happy life. I no longer seek a simple life, just a happy one. I don't really know how to do that, but i will try.

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